Okay, so as many of you know the blogging world is forever evolving and when I rebranded Alexandria Drake I wanted to get back to the roots of blogging. My desire was to let you into my life and tell my story- to be relatable and create a friendship together. I had decided not to worry about writing up those click-bait articles, going viral on Pinterest would no longer be on my to-do list. I just wanted to break things down and get back to easier times and I think I did a good job of that in the beginning but that nagging best friend of mine named doubt kicked in.
Did anyone really give two shits what I was reading around the web or how my weekend went? I wasn’t sure… so the article kind of fell off the face of the earth and because of that the blog suffered overall because the passion was gone. Does that make sense?
Maybe it does or maybe it doesn’t. Basically, the point I am trying to make is that I’ve made my way back to the roots of Alexandria Drake and the Monday Musings article is back and here to stay. So let’s get started.
AROUND THE WEB:
If you follow me on Instagram then you know I talked about my journey with therapy and how self-care is one of my biggest struggles and weaknesses. One day I was doing some reading and I came across an intriguing article in Girlboss about 31 Acts of Necessary Self Care (That Cost Literally Nothing)! It was just refreshing to read it and realize that there are a lot of little affirmations I can do for myself every day and that self-care doesn’t have to be that hard. Personally, as a request from my therapist I’m actually working on the fundamentals behind #7: List three things you appreciate about yourself. What I’ve learned the most through my journey with therapy so far is that you really need to show up for yourself in order to be truly happy.
I’m going to be completely honest in saying that lately, we haven’t been doing much on the weekends. A bought of anxiety hit me about a month ago and life has just been a little bit of a struggle lately. As you know if you follow along on Instagram I have been going to therapy for the past few months and I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD.
Getting the diagnoses was hard but it was also equally liberating because now I knew that all the demons I suffered were real and that I could put a name to the battle I’ve been raging against for over a decade now. While therapy has been the best thing I have ever done for myself it’s also been really eye-opening and hard – which is what led to this current state of life-altering/consuming anxiety.
So with all that being said I just haven’t felt like getting out or doing anything really. The anxiety is ruling my life so much right now that I’m always anxious and nothing has been enjoyable. Thankfully, Eddie has been patient with my process, he always is. I really couldn’t have asked for a better husband! So this past weekend we stayed in and played board games, did a few decorating projects around the house, successfully killed another plant when trying to re-pot it, and had what Eddie called the big fry off.
Reading: I did a review for you guys a few months ago on All The Ugly and Wonderful Things and I just think I should let you guys know I’ve read that book more than 20 times this and I am still in love with it. If you haven’t read it yet I urge you to give it a try. As Oscar Wile says, “If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all.”
Valentines Day: Eddie and I don’t actually celebrate Valentine’s Day in the conventional Hallmark way. I’ve just never really like the hype around it, there is a no flower rule, no fancy presents and no dinner out. We always just stay in and every other year one of us cooks the other their favorite meal. This year I will be making Eddie his favorite Louisiana Cajun Chicken Pasta meal with peppers and portabello mushrooms. It takes me over 4 hours to make and is a real love of labor so I only make it a handful of times every year. I’ll be sure to bring you guys with me through the process on Instagram Stories and I will do a post on the blog.